I am thinking that since it is cloudy outside so I can’t hang out at the pool, I am going to attempt to make chocolate chip cookies

I am just tired of everything. Tired of never saying the right thing, never having the right emotions. Tired of never getting anywhere in life, tired of being not moving up in my company. Tired of feeling so alone I hate it, tired of not eating right, tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of always feeling like I am standing outside while everyone is on the inside. I am tired. I want to run away.